The Queen of Procrastination
Why it took me MONTHS to get this first post done
The time has come for me to write this first post. I’m actually surprised that it took just shy of 11 months to write. That seems kind of fast for me. I have written this post at least 500 times in my head. I’m waiting for it to be perfect. I like to tell myself that it’s because I’m particular. If I can’t do it perfect the first time, why do it at all?
Of course, that’s why most things I start are never done, or are only known to me. That book I started writing in 2014 - It has a title (The Bracelet - in case you were wondering) and a plot (girl is dumped by her boyfriend when she thinks he is going to propose marriage and the only keepsake from this relationship is a bracelet he gave her for her last birthday). Not a single word has been written in over 9 years. That wine and coffee bar I am going to open? Business plans are still being formulated in my head, but no real action has ever taken place. My friends call this ‘analysis paralysis’ - where I think about something so long that I never actually get around to doing it. I know some of you can relate. We could form a support group and call it Overthinkers Anonymous. Of course, that means that one of us would have to take that first step and actually start the group. I can confidently say that it will not be me.
I have posed the argument that the only person that is impacted by my procrastination is me. I know that is not true. My delay in responding to invitations impacts the host. My delay in keeping in touch with friends has caused some of those friendships to drift away. I know that I need to do better. People depend on me. Life is lonely without connection to others. Every week I think of someone and say I am going to reach out to them and say hello, but I don’t. I wonder if they ever think of me as much as I think of them?
This first post is my first step to stop procrastinating. To be satisfied with the effort, if not the content. It will get better over time. I hope you drop in once in a while to see how things are going.